December 12, 2008, Re: happy to be getting a little further into the marrow‏

"it feels like i just took acid for the first time again" ---

holy shit, THAT is the achievement! whatever that feeling was or iS, it was a simultaneous erasure and revelation upon the flat world, and if that could somehow be re-created, within a different kind of TRAUMA, with the kind of disquieting ecstasy that cuts a slit in the backs of our necks and inserts itself, like an envelope-thin eel with white eyes, bringing us to the point on the circle where death and birth are conjoined, somehow, somehow --- then maybe poetry has a power beyond itself. as it is, poetry is a rickety ladder, a rotten rope; i am waiting for the GOLDEN CHAIN that might carry me up off of this oil-slicked tree.

best to cancel your relationship with email. mine has become compromised by work. i have no email at home, and only access it here at work, which has made personal e-mailing more officious than i would like it to be. but, saves money. season two of the wire? you should rent the entirety of THE HILLS. i rented the entire series (minus this year's), and never have so fully yielded to the waste of existence. incredible garbage. you will be TRANSFORMED! i literally lost a week of my life --- i was incapacitated with it. i couldn't do anything; eat, read, write. nothing.

i think our horseless collaborations come out soon; i sent them a bio, featuring a note about arby's. i'll do some arby's research soon --- i want free sandwiches. i think that we should re-film/re-create the commercial audio/visual fuck-up that you saw on TV all those years ago with your dad. do you think we could obtain that original footage? maybe arby's will give us access to all of their old commercial footage. of course they will. they owe us. well, not me --- they owe you.  ¶ 2:50 PM